To “someone” out there I dedicated this post

[I have learnt to see everything wider]

Seiring bergantinya lembar buku harianku

Seiring pula bertambahnya kumpulan puisiku

Dan kian panjangnya rambut di kepalaku

Aku akan belajar memahami

Mencoba mengerti

Tentang dinamika hidup

Seiring sejalannya waktu

Do you remember those lines? Well, maybe you don’t. As some of my poems reflect my hopes, so does this one.

I’ll tell you one positive ‘function’ of my diary. It’s not only a history book of my life, but as I reread it I can see how far I have improved my self. I can see the people who have helped to shape me.

Lately, I tell you, I have learnt about ‘life’ more than I used to [well, I know everybody learns].

May I tell you some good news? The word “down” is not my favorite anymore. Instead, as I learn more about gratefulness, HE guides me how to be a standing-still woman, how to be tough, up…up…up!!!

Then, I’ve proven “the theory of changing the world with the heart as the starting point.” I have learnt that my perspective will form the world I see. You know, I think I smile more than I used to; even I laugh more :D I life with smile [and laughter] for Jesus, for others, also.. for you :)

Are you happy to hear that? Those are not easy, though. Take time. I’m still learning, you know. There are times when I fail-sometimes even hurt. But, I try to wake up again and again…

I always wanted to tell you this and another thing as I used to, but I don’t know how. Whether I like it or not and whether you want to talk about it or not, I have to accept that “some things” are matter in this world. That’s one reason I couldn’t figure out how should I tell you.

As what my eyes see, you do change in some ways. But, I know that you are “still the same” in some parts. You are still care, as you always be. Though you don’t speak it in words, I know how gentle you heart is actually.

So, as you told me long time ago, I tell you all through this post that I won’t regret someday coz I miss the chance.

From the deepest of my heart, I’d like to thank you. You are part of my “spectators” who help me to grow and shape me into who I am now.

So, wherever LIFE brings us now and then, I hope there’s one thing that would stay still: this TRUST, the trust of our friendship.

I have learnt how to relax my grips more so that other people [including you] as well as me myself, can improve and meet what God has compassionately planned. I pray that each of us can meet the foreordained destiny HE has made over our life.