inconvenient truth...

finally the invinsible wall is revealed
it is inconvenient
but IT IS IT..

quite fine

afterall i was waiting 4 this moment
then it comes

yeah, im fine
i hope i really do

'status quo'

of my being S
it's a C zone

but it won't last long
know for sure

face the battle i try
though D and I i lack of

how's it?

hmm still have moved not far yet

well, i still do hope
whatever the risk

a package

appetizer
main course
dessert

that's how to serve guests a complete meal

a package
total

and i like to give ones
a package
all in one

can't sleep yet..

as your face draws a smile,
i'd like to say

welcome to your new nest
welcome to your new title

welcome wife
welcome in laws

congrats for your marriage

i'm happy for you, anie ^^

been a year without any posting ^^

'pursue'

that's the word comes accross my mind

'what?'

im questioning
and searching
for the answers
for the time
for the ways

but,
yes!

im going to pursue..

light conversation [part II]

a higher place
a darker spot
a silent site

a perfect scene to enjoy the beauty of the city
the splendor of the night lamps
the magnificence of the lights

the tranquil skyscrapers
the drifting vehicles
the flaring fireworks

then who we are
just an insignificant speck
compared to this splendid world

looking up
no star hanging on the sky
dare to make a difference?

ps:this is the appetizer ^_*, wait for the main course :p

light conversation [part I]



what is a light

something that glows in the dark



why does a light exist

because there's darkness



when was the light born

when there was darkness



where can the light be seen

where the darkness exists



who has the light

the ONE who conquers the darkness



how does the LIGHT conquer the darkness

by shinning brightly through the darkness

something beyond expectation

out of the blue



happens

to a certain person

in a certain time

by a certain person

or people

or happenstance



for a certain reason



amusing

relieving

shocking



a surprise

"surprising"

still don't understand..



some I have met

some I have observed



but still..
I don't understand

couldn't find the clue



the complexity of their brain

the uniqueness of their thought



something that I know...

it draws them special

relax...

it's already more than one hour i'm sitting here
clicking here and there
typing abc and xyz
smiling... nodding... thinking...
RELAXING...

it's been a while i've never been like this
i really enjoy it..
i miss it much..
browsing the internet
and
RELAXING

what a 'little' paradise!

^_^

"can i see your smile, miss?"

what a phrase!!!
i cannot help my lips from smiling

my dear students...
thanks

“Such a risky business, euh?!”

everything is costly
everything takes a risk
isn’t it?

I think so…

so does love
it is such a risky business

to love means to take a risk
but not to love also means to take a risk, too

whichever choice it is risky..

dare???

Standards Meeting

we cannot expect that people
will agree with us
will completely understand what we want
will be in line with our idealism, our way of thinking

each of us has a different standard

then, this is how things are working…

if we want to work together..
‘meet’ the standards to make a deal
to adjust
to understand each other
in a thorough discussion
during the standards meeting

let’s wait for the result

it is not about being perfectionist
it is not about being complicated

but if you say so
it's ok!

a space

just need a little space for me to relax...
just give me a little space, would you?
a little space on my own

there's something missing within me

the feeling of lost
of many things

letting go
letting go

until i have nothing
until i give up everything

GOD...
should i give up????

a lullaby

just sing me a song
just spell me those magic words

to bring me home
to rest in my nest

safely

pelajaran terbang
[episode 2]

sepasang sayap untuk terbang

sudahkah sayapku tumbuh?
sudah kuatkah sayapku untuk mengepak di angkasa?

sayapku tumbuh di kedua sisi tubuhku, keseimbangan terjaga
sayapku dibangun atas dasar kepercayaan, ketakutan terusir
sayapku dibangun pada sebuah pengharapan, semangat terpompa
sayapku dirangkai oleh bulu-bulu kasih, kehidupan bercahaya

sayapku mulai mengepak
meninggalkan sarang lamaku
mengarungi angkasa
menuju sarang baru
tanpa lupa sarang yang lama

karena sarang adalah tempat sayapku tumbuh dan berkembang
karena sarang adalah tempat sayap-sayap yang lain tumbuh dan berkembang
untuk terbang
menuju
"rumah-rumah sayap"

apa yang penting

apa yang penting kadang bukan yang ingin dipikirkan
apa yang penting kadang tak dianggap serius
apa yang penting kadang terabaikan

dan ketika hidup sampai pada pembelajaran tentang apa yang penting
apa yang penting itu akan menjadi sangat berharga
berharga lantaran tak sedari sebelumnya dianggap penting

apa yang penting tak dapat gamblang digambarkan
apa yang penting mampu dipahami bahasa air mata
apa yang penting akan menunjukkan kemana mengarah